I had never heard of an Akashic reading before my mother gifted me one for Christmas. It sounded made-up, to be honest. What is it, and why would I want one? Still, I was grateful.
An Akashic record supposedly compiles all thoughts, words, emotions, or intentions a being has in their past, present, or even future. Theosophists believe the files to be an encoded account of a non-physical plane of existence. There is no scientific evidence to support that the records exist.
The Akashic record reader supposedly asks for spiritual help in “opening the records” and then allowing a person to ask questions about themselves and any connections in past or present lives.
If there is no scientific evidence and there is no way to indeed verify that the records exist, why would I want to sit through something like that? What if this person giving the reading would be vague? What if they kept the information open enough that I trick my belief system into a justification for whatever it is they would say?This is a ridiculous idea. My mind kept replaying these thoughts over and over again.
I was wrong.
Very wrong.
A person needs to be open-minded about reincarnation and the possibility of the records before an Akashic records reading. If I hadn't researched so many stories in the last several years, I might not have been so open-minded; however, there are many unbelievably detailed recollections of another life. Many of them are immediately followed up by someone trying to discount or confirm their memories. It fascinates me. Many people believe reincarnation to be mumbo jumbo and I believe in it so I thought maybe this Akashic records thing may be something I am balking at but really exists.
When I called to set up an appointment, Christine didn't want any details, not even to know where I am from. OK, well, what a relief because had she asked for more, it would be like giving her a jump start for research, right?
When I spoke with Christine, it was different. I had psychic readings before with other credible psychics. Susan Anderson, with Bridging Two Worlds, and the late Sylvia Brown years ago. I have also had some psychic readings with people who obviously excel at spewing open words that could apply to nearly anyone to make a dollar. Christine was different on the level of Susan and Sylvia. I could already tell that there was a authenticity to her.
Christine asked me my legal name and month/date of birth. Then she said a prayer. she said, “the records are open” and began speaking about me.
I kept thinking it was a hokey ploy to get money.
Then, she said things that not even my mother would have known. She was telling me about specific situations, and I had only told her my name and partial birth date.
My curiosity was piqued, but I was still cautious.
She asked if I had any questions. Well, of course, I do! Before my reading, I had looked up Akashic records on Google, and there were these long lists of supposed items that held in the records to ask the Akashic reader.
That’s not exactly how it goes.
One of the questions on Google asked, “What is my soul’s purpose?" and another asked, "Who is part of my soul family?” Those seem reasonable questions that she would have answers to if she were real, right?
Wrong!
That is not the correct intention for the Akashic records reader. There are specific questions a person must ask. Merely asking, "What is my soul's purpose" was too vague. So, I asked her, "what did I come here to learn?”
She blew me away. She told me about struggles with personal relationships and that I needed to learn self-love. Part of me thought “Don’t we all need to learn self-love?” but she blew me away about specific reasons I need to learn about it.
She touched on my relationships with my mother and my ex-husband. It’s uncomfortable to hear that a person would want to choose specific people in their life or to have specific faults.
Choosing our life? Christine had me questioning everything I was brought up to believe about how life is created and if or how it ends. Was talking about me choosing this pain necessary? Was telling me that I am the one who wanted experiences to learn even true? Was it necessary to make me feel confused?
It is necessary, though. It is necessary to be confused to shake up the foundation of belief fed to me, to us. We do not discount people’s opinions, but they are just that, opinions. No one has certainty of what life is, how it is created, and if or how it ends. We are SUPPOSED to question everything we “learn” and everything we believe. Being obedient to social norms is a control, not a truth.
I didn’t realize that you can face emotions and painful experiences without necessarily dealing with the person who caused them. That is such a massive discovery for me.
In my mind, I reasoned with myself that issues could not be resolved because I would have to face the person who caused the emotion. I put those issues in the back, trying to erase them by denying them.
That’s not facing an emotion or experience, nor is it necessary to meet the person. I have a lot of feelings and painful experiences to allow myself to feel and release. I finally recognize why my mother would gift this to me, to help me learn how to heal my soul.
Christine offered me the tools to learn how to detach from negatives in my life. She also warned me that by tapping into this soul-searching journey, I would experience discomfort and often emotional time coming up.
She was not wrong about that either.
Within a few days, I started having these crazy vivid dreams, and to be quite honest, they didn't follow a story line, so none of it made sense.
I would wake up and regret ever talking to her because I had not remembered dreaming before. Now, I remember that I imagined but also that there is no rhythm or rhyme to the vividness. This was dream chaos.
And just like that…… I chose a new path on my journey.